Relationship, Spiritual Growth Mindset and a Pure Heart
on the Journey
Every Friday in the Liturgy of the Hours and throughout
Lent, we as the Church knock on God’s door with the words of Psalm 51:
Have mercy on me, God, in your kindness.
In your compassion blot out my offence.
O wash me more and more from my guilt
and cleanse me from my sin.
In your compassion blot out my offence.
O wash me more and more from my guilt
and cleanse me from my sin.
At one time in my journey these words used to rub me the wrong
way – I resisted the thought of being guilty and doing things that offended God that
would require some type of cleansing. Maybe a result of living in a relativist
culture that sees guilt as irrelevant because ‘anything can be right if you
believe it to be’ or maybe just because of the “pride of youth”. Over
time and with more life experience I have come to realize that as good as we
think we are, with our imperfect human nature – there are bound to be times
when we purposely choose our way over God’s way – which is what the Church
calls sin. When we choose something imperfect, less than full goodness
and perfection – it’s an offense to our relationship with God because He is all
good and all loving. Being perfect as God is perfect is such a high bar to
reach (Jesus asked us to aim for that in Matthew 5:48) – but is worth the
effort of trying. Really!? Well, that’s where a Spiritual
Growth Mindset comes in. As we navigate the ‘not yet’ without giving
up…the journey brings us strategies and teaches us so much. By the time we
arrive at our final destination – our eternal home – we will have done our best
(with God’s grace) to become the child of God we were given the potential to
be.
Going back to my resistant younger self – what
happened that helped me embrace my fallen nature and admit I need and want
God’s kindness and mercy? Looking back, I can see that God used different
people and circumstances to really cement the core belief of God’s
unconditional love for me. He doesn’t just love me (and you!) in spite of
our brokenness and sin, He loves and holds all aspects of ourselves. Even the
parts that hurt Him and that he calls us to change. Like children needing
secure attachments and ‘bottom hands’ to hold them in life – I found my secure
attachment in Christ – the one who never leaves me, never stops loving me…even
when I mess up. It’s that relationship that helps me see the reality of
who I am, ALL aspects, and it’s that loving relationship that makes it possible
for me to bare my brokenness to Him and ask for His kindness and mercy to “blot
out my offenses”. His love gives me confidence to start anew with a pure heart
that can hopefully see Him more and more…thus deepening my
relationship with Him and those I serve.
A
pure heart create for me, O God,
put a steadfast spirit within me.
Do not cast me away from your presence,
nor deprive me of your holy spirit. (Psalm 51:3)
put a steadfast spirit within me.
Do not cast me away from your presence,
nor deprive me of your holy spirit. (Psalm 51:3)
This Lent I continue to knock on
God’s door for purity of heart and for grace to fill the gaps in myself that
keep me from being the generous, loving and merciful person I am called to be.
I pray for a strengthening of my spiritual growth mindset as I travel this
journey and run into both joys and difficulties. What about you? What are
you knocking on God’s door for during this Lenten season?